there is no one here
after a particularly hard day
i lit a scented candle
read some rhymes from a children's book
and sat on my bed
hoping to write some
but i got distracted
and read something that made me sob
so now i am all teary, red-eyed, and out of breath
and there is no one here
mom didn't video call today
and that's okay because she is busy and tired
my brother hasn't talked to me in a while
dad thinks i am busy
maybe i am
my cat doesn't stay with me
i don't have a boyfriend
the guys who like me
don't want to listen to this
they are there for the fun bit you know
my best friends must have better things to do
i've spent so much of my time and life
thinking about others' opinions of me
and now i am thinking it doesn't matter
because there is no one here
but me